My Appreciation and gratitude!

     

Oil Painting of me, by the artist Gordon

      Its been a while since I actually sat down and blogged about something, and the sad part is I've had so much to say but I haven't really said it because I've been real busy. The importance of today's blog is to show my appreciation. I've  realized I complain a lot and its not a good thing, can't say am proud about it either. I have to stop myself  a couple of times from some of the things I catch myself saying. That's one of the things I need to work on. Plus I need to start having positivity in everything that I do. Then again, if I'm not complaining or venting on my blog, what's there to say?
     
      Lately I've been caught between my thoughts and my reality; wondering about possibilities and whether some things were meant to be or whether or not I plan my own destiny. Tell me about fate verses destiny, are they the same thing? I'm I able to plan destiny provided I know my fate. Is my fate fixed or is it decisive of the choices I make? I think somehow we all set the path to our fate by the destiny we choose for ourself. Even so what if our fate is already determined for us and there is nothing we can do about it? Don't we all have the right to know our fate? Will it affect our choices? So in the end shouldn't it matter that we know our fate if its already fixed? Will it make us change our destiny if we can make better choices; know what we're already doing wrong to mend the broken pieces? Are we lazy to work towards our goals knowing they are already attainable if told? All these questions... I'm wanting to know my fate and whether everything I'm doing now is all worth everything I'm working towards.Ok, lets forget about fate and destiny. You should give me some of your opinions on that as well.

        I've completely gone out of my route from where I began on this journey. If you know me then you know I was strong on my sciences, loved it; somewhere along that path I decided to brunch out into the arts and test out the pastures of this new route I'm now headed. Sometimes not even I can convince myself whether I'm on the right track, whether I've deviated completely and gotten lost, and if I'll ever find my path again.

My 'channel of hope' painting:
This is the last painting I've painted so far. I still see the light. That's always something I've said when I'm hopeful or if I'm almost getting where I'm headed. This painting reminds me to be hopeful.

   

   Right now I believe in reason and purpose. That's the light shining bright. When I don't have reason I feel lost. If I can't say why or find the reason of the things I do then I have no purpose. I ask myself, "What's the point?" All in all, its about finding the worth. May God give me purpose.

     I appreciate every encouraging voice. Any compliments or comment I get. Every little reminder, question or encouragement of me to continue what I do. Any support I have from my paintings, photography, nail art, or my magazine. I thank everyone who has lifted a hand to write me an article for my mag, model for me on the cover, thanking my editor for my magazine and all those who read my magazine. Thanking all those who've encouraged me to keep painting. My photography work, my admirers of my work. Those who've liked my pages and sent me mentions on twitter and helped 'RT' my work.. anything I can think of cause you all took the time to do that. LOL even my haters if I'm allowed to say. But mostly I'm grateful for all the positive feedback. Thank you God, I'm always grateful to you first! I can't say I've made it in my life or I'm even close to where I want to be, but I am thankful for everything I have now and what I've been given. We all should have that mentality of being thankful.

You all are my voice of hope because you show me that I'm on my right track. You're my reason, therefore you give me purpose.

This is my thank you note to everyone that have given me a reason, I am humbled :-)

A special thank you to all my blog readers, those who've followed and Favorited my blog. You all know yourselves I salute you all. Yes! I appreciate that you tell me these things.

I can never say enough thank yous.

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Here is a song I would like to leave you all with cause I saw the video today for the first time and I already heard the song and liked it.

Shine bright like a diamond!


   

What I look for in a relationship.

A lot of people keep asking me the same questions like, "Why I am single? What's my type?" and I'll just go ahead and give you some of those reasons and answers:

1. Date Someone who adds Value to your life.

I need someone that I don't have to lower my standards to be with but will help me raise my standards instead. I should be climbing the ladder upwards not downwards. I need progress in my life. So I check his status qua, does it match my lifestyle? Can he be able to do the things I've always done and does he fit in comfortably in my life? Many people talk about how money doesn't matter but to me it does. I'm not saying be a gold digger, I just don't settle down for someone that I know wont provide for me because a man is suppose to be able to provide. Somehow I always end up being the one who pays all the bills in a relationship and also the one doing all the providing, I don't like it. I need a man who will be able to take care of me. At least a man who makes himself feel needed or is good for something by contributing into my life. If you can't even treat me out to lunch and afford a plate for yourself, leave alone me... what value are you really adding to my life? So you bought me a soda cause that's all you could afford, I have sodas at home. In that case I'm not really impressed, so hell yes I am better off without you. In my head I already know I'm way out of your league and I don't want you to strain yourself to satisfy me.

2. Seriously? Your addicted to drinking, Smoking and you're always high!?

How can I take someone like that seriously? I'll be honest right now, if you are addicted to any of those I mentioned, I just can't see myself with you. I need someone who can get their act together. I really don't need to string along this kind of person around me that influences me negatively. These are usually the type of people I run away from the most. Yes I drink occasionally but to be honest if you fall on this category, know your on the bottom of my list because I don't want to become an addict like you.

3. Religious Views:

I am a religious person, so one of the things that don't automatically work for me is if you tell me you don't believe in God. One of the things that ruin relationships are when you and your partner do not have the same views or anything in common. For me this is a big one! I need someone who can help me grow spiritually, be  my mentor and not take me away from my God.

4. Someone who compliments me:

Chivalry isn't dead! I need a man who courts me and tells me how he really feels. A guy who's not afraid to share his thoughts with me. Tell me how he feels, be open! Besides, how else can a relationship survive without communication. A guy who appreciates me and makes it known gives me all the reassurance a girl needs. So do it all the time, keep it constant, keep those compliments coming! I'll never get tired of hearing I look good cause I'm someone who likes to look good anyway. I wears my perfume, do my hair and nails...
this tells me that you appreciate and notice my daily efforts to impress. And not only I should look good, I also need my man to be on top of his game. For example, I do my daily workouts, he also needs to keep up with his shape. A guy who smells good is such a turn on for me, so yeah! A man who knows how to take care of himself can definitely roll with me! I want to know and hear we look good together and that we also compliment each other well when we're together!

5. Emotional stability and support:

I like giving advice to people so I don't mind listening to what people have to tell me. Even so I can't be with you if you have too many problems going on in your life and you're not emotionally stable. I also keep off if you can't control yourself around people when something nerve wrecking happens. These are the type of people I fear might turn on me and hit me one day. I'm against any abusive relationships and I try to pick up on the early signs. Call me paranoid, but I'd better be safe than sorry. I like people who are easy to talk to and advice me on the little things in life and are honest with their opinions. Someone who if I get stuck or hit a mental block, will help me move forward. All in all someone who can also be my best friend and who you know you can count on to be there for you when you need them.

Usually I ask people in relationships, "Do you see yourself spending the rest of your life with your current partner?" they usually say no. The way I see it is that I don't want to say no when I'm asked that question. I always know when I can't see myself spending the rest of my life with someone and in such cases I don't bother being with that person. There's no need for a tainted heart when you know a relationship wont last. I usually don't take people for joy rides... I make it count! 

All in all I want someone who will build me up physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually! Now that's what I really look for in a man if you ask me! 

My 50 Paintings so far:

I started painting in 2009 as a hobby. Thought I'd desplay the 50 paintings I have done from my first to the latest to celebrate having done 50 paintings.

1

2

3

4

5

6. (faces)

7

8. (distorted garden)

9

10

11. (coloured falls)

12

13

14. (something pink)

15

16. (cry me a river)

17

18

19

20

21

22

23. (butterfly effect)

24

25

26

27

28

29

30

31. (let go)

32

33. (something dreamy)

34

35

36. (day and night)

37

(The 2 in addition to the 1st piece equalled a 3 piece set)

38. (twilight sage)

39

40

41

42

43

44

45

46

47

48

49

50. (Mockingjay)

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