I really have admiration for humility in others and I’ve realized it’s something I want to find in myself. I keep finding myself complaining about the lack of value and self-worth over and over again and this story has got tired. I realized that I don’t value myself at all. I don’t value myself even now, and so what makes me think I’ll ever find value myself even if I was at a better position.
Funny I was watching Lupita’s interview with Lilian Muli on Citizen, you can watch it below: (Skip to 20:30 onward if you don’t want to watch the whole video).
When she talks about value and everything she said on that and also about humbling yourself. Her words are so powerful because I realized that’s me, the whiner. I don’t really find value in anything, even in the smallest things or appreciate what’s in front of me right now.
All my life I’ve been seeking for something that I don’t have, or wanting what I don’t have and I’ve been forgetting about what’s there in front of me. I really need to change that. I want to be able to serve others without complaining. I’m working on that. I need to stop bickering about silly things and change my attitudes towards life. I need to be able to give, even more than I have. Not caring about tomorrow, but caring about the joys which today bring.
The Good book says, and I really love this: (My Sunday reading in church by the way!)
Mathew 6: 25-26
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body more than your clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not more value than they?”
I’m seeking humility in this Lent period.